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Lately I have been realizing that I struggle alot with PATIENCE. This is not something I am just now finding out I have always been told that I need to learn to have patience, its just now coming to my attention more. Not just having Patience with people(which I do struggle alot with) but patience with myself. I feel like all the time I just wanna know what is going to happen in my life. My biggest thing as of right now that I am having trouble with deciding "what I wanna be when I grow up" aka: my major in school. I have only been in school a year and have already changed my major 3 times but I think I have it this time. I am now starting to realize that I am growing up and will have to start making BIG decisions soon. I have always said I can not wait to grow up and be on my own but to be honest I don't think I am as ready as I thought, mom and dads house and their rules will do just fine for a little while longer. With all that said last night I went to a ladies bible study Everything I had been struggling and praying about became more clear last night. We were all sitting at a table and one fo the girls said that with girls our age the biggest thing we struggle with is not knowing whats going to happen and where we're going in life then she said something that really got me. She said God has put you on this earth for one purpose and one purpose only and that is to share and tell everyone about him. I have heard this ever since I can remember but this time it really stuck with me. I felt like I really understood and got it last night that we are here for that purpose and that you may not ever see the person you just set by again or when you'll take your last breath on earth.

TWO.....

Its late I'm bored....



1.If you could give someone one piece of advice what would it be?

-To not try to please anyone else but yourself



2.If you could have a room full of one thing what would it be?

-Chocolate covered strawberries



3.If you could choose one of your personality traits to pass to your children what would it be?

-That I am so determined to do what has to be done



4.What would you attempt if you knew you would not fail?

-I would try and become a doctor



5.What is the best advice you have ever received?

-My grand father has been telling me ever since I can remember that little do we realize the small choices we make in life are the ones that will affect us the most, as I am getting older I am starting to learn that this is so true



6.Where do you see yourself in 10 years?

-Hopefully in 10 years I will be a college grad, a wife, and a mommy



7.If you could know one thing about the future what would it be?

-I wanna know who I will marry and when(prob what most girls would wanna know)



8.Who is the one person you look up to the most?

-That would have to be my sister she has helped me so much even if she doesn't realize it she has. I could not ask for a better sister she has always been the best christian role model anyone could ask for.



9.If you were stranded on an island what 5 things would you take with you?

-computer,cell phone,dill pickle chips,diet mt.dew,hair brush



10.Would you rather have the power to be invisible or to read minds?

-read minds because I hate when you can tell that people are thinking something you just do not know what they are thinking

ONE.....

So I deleted all my past post and am starting over. Life lately has had its ups and its downs. I'll start with the ups so I started dating someone new. I could not have asked for anyone better to come into my life at the moment that he did. He is a guy that treats me great and that loves the Lord how much better could it get. He has a great family they have treated me like I am part of the family since the day I met them. He has the best personality and is always making me laugh. Now time for the downs...I have had some personal stuff happen over the past 7 months that I have had to learn to completely give it all to God and let him handle it. Its been so hard to try and not fix it by myself and to wait on him to do it the way he wants it to be done. I know that he knows what is best for me and that when its his timing that all the pieces will fall into place just like they need to. My life saying for the past 7 months has been "wait and have patiences". I have also learned lately that sometimes you cant fix things, sometimes things just need to work themselves out, you just have to do what is best for yourself, and to stop trying to please everyone else.